Crumbling Humility

I was feeling bored. Or some kind of way and decided to write. Remember I said it's cathartic for me. The problem was I couldn't think of anything to write about. I was directionless. So I asked my FB family what should I take a stab at writing about. And the first response I got was about Jesse and Sandi Jackson and how they've fucked up their lives.

Well Here ya go... Lets take a quick look at Crumbling Humility...

If you're not aware of this sad fact (you may not be a Chicagoan) another politician has been arrested and is going to jail. For of all things campaign fraud and filing false tax returns.. Word has it that their combined income was somewhere in the neighborhood of $350K (jointly). So what in the hell would give them reason to do something so stupid. So reckless... Simply put They lost their humility.

Temptation is a bitch. Temptation is what makes us strive for something other than our current situation. It's not something that applies to only humans. I'm sure all living beings experience Temptation on some level. A dog sees a plate of food. He/She KNOWS they probably shouldn't eat it. Yet it's there... I mean IT'S RIGHT THERE!!! All juicy and moist and fulfilling. Probably smells better than that shit master served earlier today. Although it's there for the taking the dog hesitates. It KNOWS that it shouldn't do it. It shouldn't even contemplate it. Yet it licks its chops. Looks both ways then eases forward. Lick, look, ease. Repeat. Before the dog realizes he's satisfied, Temptation has won. That need the dog felt has been sated... Till the next plate shows up.....

Now translate this into the Jackson situation (loosely). They're not poor. Hell by most standards they are well off. They aren't uber rich but they make enough to not have the normal headaches most of us have. PROVIDED they live within their means. They're politicians. Hell they're related to Jesse Jackson. A man many of us have read about in history books. They have advantages that many of us don't have. YET... There's a plate of cash just sitting there...IT'S RIGHT THERE!!!! And whats worse, it's got their name on it (along with something that might say campaign fund). Their income is sufficient to satisfy their needs... YET.. IT'S RIGHT THERE!!!!! So they rub their hands together, look over their shoulders, pinch a lil off the side..Repeat...Temptation has been sated... Till next time. Cause after all IT IS RIGHT THERE!!!

So like the dog, who licks, looks, eases and repeats. The Jacksons, rubbed, looked and pinched and pinched and pinched till they got caught.. The question is why? My simple answer is they were human and they were weak. Their humility had crumbled... Sadly this happens to most people in a position of power.

I'm sure being in a position where people kowtow to you, even a small number of people, gives you a sense of entitlement. Preachers and politicians are PRIME EXAMPLES of this. They run for office or they stand in front of dozens or thousands and spread the Word. Whatever their profession that's a rush. Those endorphins kick in. You get high from that feeling of superiority... And each time it happens you risk your humility crumbling.

You pinch and pinch. You make a mistake and you realize that "maybe you SHOULDN'T be doing this." Yet those that are around you. Those that are supposed to keep you grounded "like a spouse" are just as caught up in that mental high as you. Before long, instead of pinching, you're scooping. Hell why not scoop IT'S RIGHT THERE!!! Who's gonna stop you. To the outside world you're well off, so some of these purchases can be chalked up to you spending your own cash. With each purchase more and more of those humble traits you had fade away.

Whats left when the humility has crumbled? Guilt, shame, embarrassment (jail time). And for what? A fix? As anyone that's addicted to any drug or alcohol. It feels good when they're doing it. A sense of power. A euphoric high... A rush... When you start your humility is intact. 100% shield strength... Yet as each temptation comes at you. Each hit on that pipe or sip from that bottle. Each time someone says that sermon touched me or that bill you supported really helped me out, that shield weakens. Each time that lil sexy bitch Temptation sits in your lap your defenses weaken. Then what you KNOW is wrong, doesn't seem all that bad... Hell it seems like the perfect thing to do.

Hell you may even feel entitled to do it. Don't preachers oftentimes take on an air of moral superiority cause they have been "chosen" to spread GOD'S word. They tend to forget that in order to serve ANYONE you have to submit. Submit to those that you're serving, and to those who helped you get there. Haughty folks can't serve. You need some sense of humility... And when that's gone....

You end up like Jesse and Sandi. Arrested and embarrassed. Looking at jail time cause of a bitch called Temptation and a small thing that is the remainder of your humility. Can temptation be avoided. No. Temptation can't be avoided. The very nature of it is to TEMPT YOU. Can you FIGHT its pull. Yes. It's not temptation that gets you in trouble. It's GIVING IN to the temptress. It takes practice and a strong support system. A REALISTIC support system. Not a bunch of YES people who never call you on your BS. You have to admit that you're weak and susceptible to it. You've got to remember to be humble and admit your flaws and faults. You have to maintain some humility.

That's my take on it. This could just be more of my idiotic bullshit. Or there could be a small nugget of sensible truth to these words. Who knows....