At The Close Of The Day

Here we are once again. Preparing to ring in another year. Good bye 2011.. Hello 2012.. I can smell the Black Eyed Peas right now as they cook in the pot. The Mrs. is making peach cobbler and some gumbo to round out this meal. 2012 is already shaping up to be a great year and it hasn't even gotten here yet. 

Now on to the tomfoolery. I'm here today to talk to you about resolutions.. You know those things that y'all make every year about what you're gonna do different in the new year. You read right. I said Y'ALL. I don't make em. Never have and never will. Simply because if you live your life the way you should EACH and EVERY day you wouldn't need resolutions.  So I'm not promising to be nicer to people, to stop being brutally honest or even less ass-holey.. Nope not gonna happen. 

So as usual, Facebook (CIIIC), Twitter (@xxciiicxx) and the rest of the cyber world has blown up with all these post about resolutions. Folks saying things like I'm gonna do this differently and I'm gonna do that. The one that gets me is those folks who say, 2012 is the year I end all my toxic relationships....

Now think about that for a second. You're gonna end your toxic relationships...THE NEXT CALENDER YEAR... Not today. Not last week. You're gonna end them in 2012... YOU'RE A FUCKING LIAR... Yea I said it. You're lying to everyone and worst of all you're lying to your damn self. What the hell are you waiting for?? You've said it yourself. The relationship is TOXIC.... What damn reason can you POSSIBLY have for deliberately staying in a relationship you, yourself claim is toxic.

What you need to be making a resolution to do is USE YOUR FUCKING BRAIN MORE!!! How about that shit. Can someone explain to me this logic? You know this relationship isn't good for you. You've admitted that its toxic, yet you're gonna stay in it longer than you have to.. How about this, let me take a shit on a plate and feed it to you. I bet you won't eat that would you.. Why cause its shit.. THAT'S WHY!!! Yet you'll wait till 2011 ends to decide to end a TOXIC relationship... Damn fool you..

Here's what you're really gonna do. You're gonna get rid of THAT toxic relationship and replace it with another on. Simply because you're not going to do anything different than what you did the last time. Instead of making a resolution to change YOU and YOUR MENTAL attitudes you're gonna make a resolution to get rid of others cause they are toxic...  Not yo simple minded ass. 

So for 2012 maybe your resolution should be "I'm gonna tell myself the truth more." Cause if you keep lying to ya self you're 2012 is gonna turn out as fuck up as your 2011 was.. And how do I know your 2011 was fucked up.. Well, because you waited until 2012 arrived to get rid of toxic relationships. Meaning you were in one in 2011.. 

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL MY READERS. THANKS FOR THE SUPPORT 

Chasing Santa....Lying Clause

A week of more ago, a reporter on one of our local news stories made a SHOCKING acknowledgement. One that cause people to get severely pissed and offended.  I mean it was so bad she had to issue an apology the next day for what she said. She admitted, at 9:45 pm, on a school night, that.... There is no Santa Claus...or something to that affect. 

HOLY FUCKING SHIT!!!!!! The world momentarily stopped, parents had to scramble and do damage control and tell kids another fabricated story to cover the damage that was done by this stupid reporter.. Opening her big ass mouth. HOW DARE SHE SAY THAT!!!

Wait a second. She's a reporter, who told the truth. Reporter, truth. Truth, reporter. Yea somehow that relationship works. As it should. She made a factual statement, during the evening news (9:45 pm). And yet this is somehow wrong...

Some will say that since I'm not a parent, I don't "understand" the desire to keep kids Innocent and pure of heart and mind. To all that feel this way. Well, screw you. Just because I don't have kids doesn't mean I don't understand this desire parents have.. It just means I get to sleep at night while you're more than likely arguing with your child about why they have to go to sleep at 8:30.

Which brings me to my point... SLEEP... I know i know, that was the worlds worst segue, sorta like having a dream about Paula Patton who changes into Sha-na-na. Its just that damn bad but fuck it. I'm writing this and that's how my brain is working right now. You know this so sit back, read and enjoy. Now where was I..

Sleep, which is where those damn kids shoulda been. I do not understand how parent's have the fucking audacity to be upset than a reporter told the truth on the news. It's not her job to perpetuate the lie that parents and marketing guru's have kept going for centuries. If you wanna go with the "idea" that Santa represents love and caring of your fellow man during this holiday season. Go with that. Not the fairy tale of some ole fat white man who visits every child's house during ONE NIGHT and gives all the good little boys and girls toys and the bad ones a lump of coal.(Evil fucker!!!!) Besides, when was the last time you saw a fire place where the damn Gingerbread Man could squeeze through it let alone Santa.

Any way. So she made a statement and folks got upset. My thing is this. It was 9:45. pm, on a school night. When I was in high school, i was up this late. I may have been watching the new. most likely not.  When I was in 6-8th grade, i was probably getting ready to pass out or I was doing something childish and unrelated. 2-6th grade If I was up at 9:45pm, on a school night it was because my folks were feeling extra nice (HEY MOM HEY DAD LOVE YALL!!!) and let me finish watching something I had already started. Not the news. Any grade under this my ass was more than likely sleep. Now unless I was in Kindergarten I more than likely wasn't believing in Saint Nick.

Sorry, parents. Hate to burst your bubble but at some time you have to shit on your kids dream. Seriously. Hell you do it anyway. James wanted that flaming red power wheel and you bought him some pajama's. Remember, you've been telling him that "if you're good Santa will bring you what you ask for." So what does James do, he's on his best behavior (or as much as he can be) beginning in October. Yea October, he know Santa will more than likely only remember the recent future.

For three months he's on his BEST behavior. He does as he's told every day. Christmas day rolls around and ....faaart.. Pajamas.. Oh he may get a few other toys and things, yet what he REALLY WANTED Santa didn't bring him.. So yea you shit on your kids desires and dreams any way, so what she said wasn't that bad.

What is bad though is that people still have kids, who are old enough to watch the news and learn or potentially understand what they're watching, who still believe in Santa.. THAT'S THE FUCKING TRAVESTY HERE PEOPLE!!! Some of the comments I read were "I find it appalling. My son was watching, as we do almost every night." or "Just cause we let them believe in something like a mythical person doesn't make us bad parents but a good one cause that means we let our kids have a wonderful imagination."  If your son is watching the news every night, how the fuck is hearing that there is no Santa a shock... HAVE YOU SEEN THE SHIT THEY SHOW ON THE NEWS!?!?!?!?

Seriously, no Santa. This was stated at 9:45. He had 45 minutes of murder, death, human interest pieces, and lame ass banter between the anchors. And THEN this statement was made and he was shocked!!!! I'm sorry. I'm not buying that one. I need a parent, who has a child that's OLD enough to watch the news and who still believes in Santa Claus to explain this shit to me. Cause I don't get it.

I'm not saying its not possible. ANYTHING is possible. What I'm saying is that if you're taking the effort to explain to your child what the news is saying, then you've had to explain those commercial talking about Christmas that don't show Santa rushing into stores to buy anything. You've had to explain how does Santa come into your house to make his delivery and you don't have a fireplace. You've had to. So explain how its OK for you to lie to this child who's CLEARLY old enough to watch the new an 9:45 pm ON A FUGGING SCHOOL NIGHT. Yet it's a travesty for a reporter, who's job it is to report the truth, to make a truthful statement.

The real travesty, is that parents are so caught up in the attempt at keeping their kids "young and innocent" that they allow this fucked up reasoning to cloud their better judgement. Think about it, Say this out loud, My child is old enough to watch the news which talks about death, murder liars thieves and cooks. And I'm fine with that. Yet I can't tell them that Santa isn't real...

At some point parents need to take the training wheels off. I'm not talking about the ones on the kids. I'm talking about the one's that parents put on them selves the minute they have kids. Yes kids are precious. Yes kids need protection. I totally understand all those arguments. Yet in this day an age of predators preying on our (YES OUR) children the biggest travesty is oftentimes the one that occurs in the home. If the child is old enough to stay up to 9:45 on a school night stop the fantasy... And STOP LYING TO YOUR DAMN KIDS. ITS GOTTEN TO THE POINT THEY LOVE SANTA MORE THAN YO ASS!!!

Stalking Claus

So while I was putzing around the house this weekend, I had a thought. Yea I know, here he goes with another of those damn thoughts. Have you ever paid attention to the lyrics to Santa Claus is coming to town??? When this thought hit me this song wasn't even playing anywhere nearby. Maybe my mind is just in a holiday mood, who knows. All I know is that when you listen to or better yet read the lyrics, a disturbing fact is discovered. Santa Claus is Coming to Town describes the exploits of a stalker. Yes that's right folks, a world class Grade A stalker....

As I write this, i'm sober as shit....Ok i'm lying, i've had a about two beers and a vodka and apple juice cocktail over the course of 4 hours. So i'm sober-ish. Now are you're reading this you may be thinking What the hell has gotten into you this time. I'm not crazy. I'm serious.. You don't believe me take a look at the lyrics.


You better watch out You better not cry You better not pout I'm telling you why Santa Claus is coming to town (repeat two times) Here is where he warns you. You better watch out. Don't you pout and you better not cry cause i'm coming for yo ass.

He's making a list, Checking it twice; Gonna find out who's naughty or nice. Santa Claus is coming to town (repeat two times) Now he's telling you that he's got your address and he's checking it. To ensure he's got the right one.


He sees you when you're sleeping He knows when you're awake He knows if you've been bad or good So be good for goodness sake Peek-a-boo I see you. Cause i'm outside your window watching you With little tin horns and little toy drums Rooty toot toots and rummy tum tums Santa Claus is coming to town (repeat two times) Don't mind that banging and rattling you hear. Those are just the duct tape, hand cuffs and other assorted items in my rape kit you hear.

Do you see where i'm coming from. This song is nothing but a hidden stalker anthem. Whats worse. I've discovered that there are subliminal message in another Christmas song. Rudolph The Red Nose Reindeer is about an alcoholic.....

Thanks

Captian's Log: Stardate Supplemental. It's now 13 mins before hour. And i've been up since 4:00 am. I'm sitting here in the kitchen keeping the wife company as she cooks thanksgiving dinner. Got a strong as drink in my cup and a message on my mind. So I decided why not send a message of thanks and one of upliftment to all of you out there. Thanksgiving. That annual day of gluttony that we all rejoice in. It's a time for family and friends. It's also a time for reflection for some. One of sadness for others. Yet through it all, we give thanks. As i'm sitting her drinking, listening typing and thinking I have to say i'm extremely grateful and blessed in where I am in my life up to this point. I don't have everything I want. Yet i've got my needs taken care of. I'm not where I want to be yet i'm not that bad off either. For that in and of its self i'm thankful. I'm here of (semi) sound mind and for that I'm thankful. Yet those are not the things that i'm the most grateful for. This was a rough year for a lot of my friends. Relatives were lost, homes as well. A lot of broken hearts and sleepless nights. Yet through it all they've all endured. They've found the strength to go on. Even on those days when they felt as if quitting and giving up would be easier. They continued. They fought. They lived. It is that, that i'm the most thankful for. I've been there. More times than I care to count. More times than most people, even those close to me might even realize. In those darkest of days, and those longest of lonely nights sometimes you just don't want to continue. You just want the pain to stop. Yes I know. The fact that you are still here is what I'm thankful for. Your strength, your love, the lives you live. The people you touch. Thats what i'm thankful for. So for all of you who are going through that first holiday. For those of you who are remembering those loved ones

who made, not only this holiday but every day a special day remember this. Time will heal those wounds. It may not seem like it at first. Yet take it from me. There's nothing you can't get through with a little bit of faith and a lot of love. Lean on those that are close to you Love those that make you smile, in spite of the pain you feel. Cry with those who will let you cry (and fuck the bullshit real men cry). And most importantly always remember that through it all, there will be an end to the pain. I'm not saying it won't hurt anymore. I'm not saying you won't cry anymore. What i'm saying is that those days will be fewer and fewer as the days and months roll past. The memories of loved ones past will always be with you. So if you find yourself sneaking into a corner to shed a tear over that loved one who's not here. Thats fine. Just remember this. There is a better place other than this. One where there is no pain or tears. They have gone on to make your way a little bit easier. They watch and guide your steps. For you all that continue to fight through the pain. I want to say thanks. Or more apropos I want to give you thanks and prayers and most importantly my love. Believe it or not the fact that you continue to press on inspires those around you. Keep fighting. Peace comes in the end.

Disturbingly Depressing

When all this mess started I said I'd avoid it. I said i wouldn't use my limited space on the Internet as a tool to harp about this. Yet i can't not discuss this. I can't not act like I don't know about it. I attempted to ignore it. Yet I failed. So with that I will write. As i start this I don't know how long this will be or where it will end. So with that I give this disclaimer. This is about Jerry Sandusky and the charges levied against him. This is about those that failed.  This is for his victims (alleged).

I read the grand jury report or presentment as its legally referred to. Yep, all 24 pages. Now if you're not familiar with what a grand jury is here's a little information about them. The grand jury is used to decide whether someone should be charged ("indicted") for a serious crime. The grand just hears evidence presented by the prosecutor: U.S Attorney. The grand jury uses subpoenas to gather this evidence. It can subpoena documents, physical evidence and witnesses to testify. A grand jury is different from a regular jury in that it’s job is not to determine guilt or innocence, but to decide whether there is probable cause to prosecute someone for a felony crime.

Now keep in mind that grand juries are not the end of the line. They are in fact the very beginning of the process. What does this mean in terms of the Sandusky affair. We, the people are in for a very long journey. I'm not a lawyer, nor am I any way affiliated with any legal organization in any fashion so what follows are personal statements.

After reading the grand jury report all I can say is.............. Yea. I had nothing to say. Through 24 pages I read with an open mouth, a broken heart and tears in my eyes. And not for the reasons you may think. You see, we all know that the violation of a child is the lowest of the low. I honestly feel that murder, although horrible, isn't as bad and the repeated violation or a minor. Simply because with murder the victim's pain stops.  IF what the grand jury document alleges is true. 8 little boys were ruined. 8 teen ages boys had to struggle with the fact that someone they trusted betrayed them in the worst possible way. 8 men, have had to fight for peace with the knowledge that a portion of their childhood were tarnished and destroyed. Oh yes, as I read through this, I was heartbroken.

I won't go into details about it. If you're interested in reading the report just google it. There are several papers that have digital versions of the full document on line. Just be warned. It is graphic in nature, and disturbing in the subject. The simplest way I can describe it is Disturbingly Depressing. And not just because of what Sandusky  is accused to have done. It's because of all the people who did nothing.

Some people suck. Flat out fucking suck. Respect for the well being of our fellow man is just fucking horrible. For the most part, I'll accept that. I don't like it but I can accept the fact that people walk by or turn a blind eye when an adult is in danger. What i can't, won't and never accept is when adults turn a blind eye to kids being hurt or in danger.  That's just fucking DEPLORABLE!!!!

There were several "witnesses" to some of the more severe acts allegedly committed. And in each instance those witnesses stated that they were disturbed by what they'd witnessed. Yet in no instance did they call the police. NOT A SINGLE DAMN TIME!!! One man stated he called his father and another broke down in tears. They both reported what they saw to their superiors yet they never took the initial step to report what they saw to the police..... 

That's what disturbs me the most. Are we, as a society, so afraid of reprisal's that we don't report crimes we personally witness to authorities? Are we, as a society, so disillusioned with the police that we'd rather let someone be hurt repeatedly rather than notify them of wrong doing? Kids.... These were kids... Who were failed. Sandusky (allegedly) failed them. Employees at an institute of higher learning failed them. The legal system that allowed the first investigation to just sit. (Oh yea there was a complaint against him prior to the major one that came out. The system failed..

I pray that the victims of this are not forgotten. In the rush to "mourn" Paterno's firing lets not forget that there are numerous young men who are the true victims. They are the one's who should be honored, and fought for. Them and every other child that has ever been abused. Child abuse is a disease and it is probably more rampant than any of us realize. As an adult we must protect our youth. Not just those kids we know personally. We must protect ALL kids. We must give them a chance to grow up. So take this as my plea to all of you who read this. If you know a child who is being abused please seek help on behalf of that child. Do not let it continue. Contact your local authorities or contact The Childhelp National Child Abuse Hotline at 1-800-4-A-CHILD.

My Condolences, Kim Kardashian

So it finally happened. The attention whore ended that farce of a shame that she called a marriage. Yes, this blog is gonna be about Kim K. I know i know, you've probably heard all of this before and from much more authoritative sources than I. Yet here I am, after a long personal hiatus. To talk about, Kim K. Pull up a seat, strap in and hang on. Its gonna be a ride.

OK first and foremost, let me put this out there again. I'm not a fan of reality television or any of the folks on it.  With that in mind, this whole Kim Kardashian thing is very interesting to the cynic in me. She is a very attractive woman. Nice ass, solid rack. If i was single and she threw ass at me I'd smash that shit like a Mark McGuire (allegedly) juiced up home run. So its not her attractiveness that's a problem. Its her, in general that i've got a problem with.

Lets face it. We all know how she got her start. She took dick from some washed up never was has been. Yea I said it. Ray J was been a marginal star at BEST. He's only famous cause his sister could actually carry a tune. Otherwise, wouldn't no one give a shit about his ass. Did you notice when she stopped making music and acting on a regular basis so did he... So Kim fucked a has been on tape and became an instant celebrity...

That's it..... She didn't win a Nobel Prize.. She's not in the WNBA. She didn't star beside George Clooney or Matthew McConaughey. She wasn't even in Playboy.. She made a sex tape.. There are a TON of these damn things out there. Hers wasn't much better or much worse than any others out. (yea I've seen it). She took a dick. BIG FUCKING DEAL.. There's a woman right now sucking a mean one and she won't get shit but a stiff jaw, a gummy taste in their mouth and a dirty towel on the floor. Kim K fucked a has been, washed up wanna be and she's famous. What a fucking crock of shit.

Now that she's been married (HA) and has filed for divorce (go figure) she's taking this whole "My marriage was real" stance looking all teary eyed and shit. HOE SIT DOWN!!! The divorce rate in this country is is so fucking high, the fact that she got divorced isn't surprising. What surprises me is that THIS CHICK IS ACTING HURT??? Her and Kris, are both acting like this shit wasn't a big ass scam from the beginning..  They don't understand why this "painful?" and personal moment has now become fodder for the media cannon. Oh, i can easily answer that for you.

Sardonic, How did she whore her self out again. Well let me tell you how she did it again my few readers. That trick laid down and opened her wedding to her numerous TV shows and the newspapers and any other trifling ass media outlet that wanted to pay to witness that bullshit. There are very few weddings that are deserving of public attention. THIS WAS NOT ONE OF THEM!!!! So when you have a 4 hour wedding special on EmbarrassmentTV (E!) and you actually make cash on your wedding,  oh hell yea you're gonna be in the media eye. I don't see them rushing to give that gwap back ...  Every "personal" moment is shared in front of the damn camera. Yet she said it was real.. I'd have pissed my self if they'd come out and say, "You know what. This marriage was fake."

Society has become so dependent on "REALITY". We need TV shows looking into the mundane lives of others to make our lives better. "Reality" TV stars don't have fans, they have fucking stalkers. Think about it. If you had someone watching your every movement, they know your likes and dislikes, isn't that a stalker? Stalkers don't have to become violent to be called stalkers. It's a sad state of affairs when people feel sad for the actions of reality TV stars but don't give a shit about their co workers or their own damn family members.

Fuck Kim, Khole, fuck the pimp of a mother they've got and fuck all these other bullshit ass reality TV stars. No offense but if you happen to turn on the TV to watch this re heated piss FUCK YOU TOO! You're the reason they exist. You're the reason that for the next 2 months we're gonna hear about Kim needing a break from the media as she gets over her broken heart. And then  after that we're gonna hear about her reconnecting with a lost love.  All I know is she's a whore. Media, financial, physical or other wise. She sells everything there is about her. And sadly there's a market for this shit. Folks buy it, and support it and defend it.


So to Kim Kardashian, I say this. You aren't important. You aren't special to the world. Your best contribution to society was when you took dick on camera. Do those of us in the minority (those who really care less about you) a favor and fade into obscurity. And take the fucking rest of the reality world with you

So You Mad Huh.....

Please note. This post is going to use the actual N-Word. This is a necessary evil that is being used to prove a point. Be an adult and put aside your insecurities and read the message. If not, FUCK OFF!!

The other day on The View the topic of the word Nigger came up. NO I don't watch the show. I mean if I wanna watch a bunch of catty women argue about shit they may or may not understand I'll go to Church. Besides I work during that time. A black host and a white host got into a headed discussion / argument over who can and can't use the word. Now to set the record straight, I'm of the school of thought that there are two different words (nigger and nigga) and two totally different meanings. I'm also of the school of thought that NO ONE should use either word. Now does that mean that I don't use the word nigga... HELL NO. I don't use it as much now as I get older. Yet its still a word that's a part of my vocabulary.  Its sort of like the word dude for some. Or Bro for others.  Some women say penis or dick, others say cock.
Now I will admit I've heard both words used by people outside of the African American race. My thing is What the fuck is the fasicination of other cultures with using the word? Explain that shit to me.. Whenever discussion of the usage Nigger comes up some whites get offended that they can't use it. The argument that often gets tossed around is "If you can say it why can't I." Fuck that. My question is What reason do you have for saying it or wanting to say it? Seriously. Outside of intelligent conversation, when would you want to use the word? Let me be honest. Its a word with a HORRIBLE history. It was used as a tool of oppression. Of assult. That one word was once used to hold down an entire race of people. YES WE ALL KNOW THIS.. The fact that blacks still use it, which is a sore spot within our race, doesn't mean its up for discussion. So for anyone upset that folks get mad when its used, just remember What reason do I even have for using it? Truth be told if one black man referred to another black man as a Nigger, its about to be a fight.



Now for the other side of the story. BLACK FOLKS NEED TO GET THE FUCK OVER IT!!! I'm going on record and stating this. We, as a people will never succeed, if we keep fighting a battle over bullshit. Point blank. It fucking kills me that news and radio stations and social media will get bombarded with comments, from Blacks, how offended they are when someone who isn't Black uses this word. OFFENDED!!! Of all the shit we're threatened with on a daily basis, all the threats to our culture and who we are as a people. Folks will get verbal and physical over the usage of the word Nigger yet won't show that same passion for more serious issues.

Unemployment, fatherless children, the loss of our identity, the disenfranchisement of blacks in the political system. THIS IS SHIT TO GET MAD ABOUT... Yet when these issues come up what do we here from our community............Nothing. All this damn anger about being offended over the usage of the a word  is so fucking misplaced.  I'm not saying it doesn't matter. It matters a FUCKING TON. The fact still remains that there are much bigger issues at hand than who can and can't use the word. As a people we all know that word is trash.  Its a swear word. Up there with, bitch, ass, fuck and shit. We keep fighting a battle over bullshit, while the shit that really matters we ignore or show no interest in.
LETS GET IT TOGETHER!!!

And for the record saying N-Word IS NOT A FUCKING SUBSITIUTE FOR NOT SAYING IT!!! Thats the equivalent of saying Suck my and (pointing at my dick). True I ain't say the word but you know what I was thinking. Saying N-Word is the same fucking shit.